I'm starting to realize that people can change so drastically before their own eyes and not even notice it. It's crazy to think like that, but it really does happen. & it's sad too...seeing the person who once was your bestfriend turn into someone you only see maybe ever so often? It's scary too, in a way. You think you knew a person and then one day, everything about them can be remembered as something that existed a while ago. I miss those times where you could just kick back and hang out without any complications going on. Those were the times that I will always remember, whether or not the person has changed for the good or the worst. In this case, I think it's probably a negative change. And she knows what's going on too. But i really don't talk about it with her; in fact we never really talk all that much anymore. & the conversations that we do have basically shoot off the roof and die in a heartbeat...which does literally fucking suck.
But I really have no idea what to do about it at this point. She's my best friend and we're drifting apart for some obscure reason that I think is just ridiculous and it is kind of her fault. & she knows that and she's admitted it...BUT FUCKING DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. GAHH I don't know...maybe this will pan out somehow.
If I smile and don't believe, soon I'll know I'll wake from this dream.
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