I've been feeling so weird lately. There's a million little things going on all at once, each of them unraveling my world by a thin strand that somehow manages to stay intact by the root. I don't know how all of this is happening. I look at the people whom I used to be so close with and I see strangers. It feels so unsettling. I thought I used to know them, but I glance at them sometimes, and they're just totally different people. I don't even know who they are anymore. I'm trying to repair it, but it doesn't seem to be working at all. No one on the other side is putting towards effort and it's fucking pissing me off. If they don't seem to care about losing me as a friend, then why should I continue to put forth all this effort in the struggle to make a change? A change that's so unwilling to revert back to its original standpoint. I don't even know why I waste so much of my time thinking about it. Maybe just in the spite of that one, now severely clouded, hope that I can do something to change this. But you know what? I heavily doubt it as of now.
I'm getting sidetracked, but I'm definitely not done on this topic...
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